In my previous blog post I discussed how I was not overly anxious about receiving my test results this Thursday. Well, that has since changed… now that we are just 24 hours away, I am extremely anxious about tomorrows results.
I am excited more than anything, but worried at the same time. I have mentally prepared myself for the worst, but hoping for the best. This is my life – and my future depends on these results. To avoid additional stress I am taking the day to sort through my emotions and calm my mind (see photo of my new journal at the bottom of this post). I have to remind myself to live in the present moment – not the future nor the past – for those are things you cannot change.
In 24 hours I will have the answers we’ve all been waiting for. Cancer free or not? Either way, this is my journey and it is not going to end here. I have a lot of fight left in me and any bad news just makes me want to fight ten times harder. Cancer can not mess with me!
Updates tomorrow 🙏🤞😊